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Song Analysis #54: Britney Spears – Lucky

Title: ‘Lucky’
Where to find it: ‘Oops!…I Did It Again’ (2000, Jive)
Performed by: Britney Spears
Words by: Max Martin, Remi Yacoub, and Alexander Kronlund

Since I last wrote here on Music in Notes, my 2016 didn’t exactly go to plan. Neither did America’s, but you already know that story. For a multitude of reasons, I’m not the on-the-ground, loud protest marching type, so the way I’m going to approach the next 3 and three-quarter years is to spread as much love and understanding as possible. I felt I was already doing that through TGTF, though using music as a tool to spread feelings and emotions to help others during these trying times is now more important than ever.

Last year, one great thing that happened to me (or rather I made happen, I suppose), I finally got a car that had SiriusXM. I had thought I’d use it primarily to tap into the ‘underground’ world of music not being played on mainstream radio. However, because I’ve been scanning various channels of music past, I’ve been revisiting the songs of my schooldays and realising that they now mean something entirely different to me than they once did when I discovered and fell in love with them. One of these is Jason Mraz’s ‘The Remedy (I Won’t Worry)’, a song that I’ve always enjoyed for the happy way it sounds, but had no idea until recently that it could have come from a much darker place. But that analysis, and others, are for another time.

Back to this one. Britney Spears has been much maligned in the media because of her various shenanigans, including shaving her hair off in a temporary bout of insanity and marrying and then divorcing one of her backup dancers, Kevin Federline. Given the bad publicity she’s gotten and her less savoury musical entries such as ‘I’m a Slave 4 U’ and ‘Toxic’, it’s easy to forget she was once a squeaky clean Mouseketeer and once had Justin Timberlake on her arm. There’s a part of me that blames society for him somehow coming out on top and smelling like roses, and every time… Britney Spears might have been an easy target, and the song that Max Martin, Remi Yacoub, and Alexander Kronlund wrote for her is remarkably prescient for what would come to be in the pop princess’ future. It’s impossible to know whether Britney herself wanted this life for herself she had been pushed in a certain direction by her record label. I did wonder how much of her music actually reflected Britney herself. Of all her songs, ‘Lucky’ has struck me as the most honest, whether it was done on purpose and with this intention with her songwriters or not.

It may seem strange that I’ve picked a really old song of hers right before SXSW. But I’ve looked at it with fresh eyes recently, and it seems to be a good cautionary tale ahead for some artists I will see in Austin before they go stratospheric. I find, too, that it’s a reasonably good reflection of how things don’t always appear what they seem. I am often approached here in DC by music fans who think running a music Web site like TGTF, being able to cover music festivals around the world, interviewing bands, etc. is a fun job that they’d like to have. And I’m not saying it isn’t. I wouldn’t trade the experiences offered to me for anything in the world. But what most people don’t see or know is how much I am doing behind the scenes, how much of my own free time and social life I choose to sacrifice for what I believe is an important enterprise in keeping music alive and well. They also don’t see the other parts of my life I’ve struggled with that I’ve chosen to keep private, some of which has loomed larger in recent weeks thanks to a commander-in-chief who has purposely stoked the fires of racial injustice. Anyway, enough about me, and on to the analysis!

First, the words:

Spoken intro by Spears
This is a story about a girl named Lucky…

Verse 1
Early morning, she wakes up
Knock, knock, knock on the door
It’s time for makeup, perfect smile
It’s you they’re all waiting for
They go…
“Isn’t she lovely, this Hollywood girl?”
And they say…

Chorus
“She’s so lucky, she’s a star”
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking,
“If there’s nothing missing in my life,
Then why do these tears come at night?”

Verse 2
Lost in an image, in a dream
But there’s no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?
They go…
“Isn’t she lovely, this Hollywood girl?”
And they say…

Chorus
“She’s so lucky, she’s a star”
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking,
“If there’s nothing missing in my life,
Then why do these tears come at night?”

Spoken bridge
“Best actress, and the winner is…Lucky!”
“I’m Roger Johnson for Pop News standing outside the arena waiting for Lucky”
“Oh my god…here she comes!”

Bridge
Isn’t she lucky, this Hollywood girl?
She is so lucky, but why does she cry?
If there’s nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?

Chorus 2x
“She’s so lucky, she’s a star”
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking,
“If there’s nothing missing in my life,
Then why do these tears come at night?”

“She’s so lucky, she’s a star”
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking,
“If there’s nothing missing in my life,
Then why do these tears come at night?”

Now, the analysis:

This song is the epitome of the phrase, “it’s lonely at the top.” And it is. Something else I’ve become all too accustomed to as a music editor is watching the trajectory of a pop band go up…and then come crashing down. You can’t stay on top forever, and that was true in Britney’s case. When this song came out in 2000, I was in school and did wonder what it must have been like living in her ivory tower, waving down at her adoring fans. I think it’s only natural for the rest of us to envy such power, fame, and fortune. It seems like you would have the world in the palm of your hand and have everything you want.

But what I have also seen from the side of an artist’s success is the dark side of fame. The inability to connect with the fans like they used to because there are just too many fans and the possibility of someone getting injured is too great. I miss being able to talk to some of my megastar friends in this business because they don’t come out of their tour bus after shows for that very reason. Coming home to a life that feels alien and a partner who doesn’t understand what it’s like to be out on the road for weeks at a time, in a situation that isn’t ‘normal life’ at all. Depression, alcoholism, and escapism aren’t uncommon for these people we put on a pedestal who are, of course, really as normal as you and me. It has been repeated to me many times that being a touring musician messes with your head and your relationships. And nearly 99% of the time, you can’t assure you’ll always be on top and the checks will keep coming in. Doesn’t sound so great, anymore, does it?

Verse 1 of ‘Lucky’ is a veiled crack in the façade. In order for our pop princess Lucky to be presentable to her fans, she’s being woken up to get hair and makeup done. I must have been a little girl when my mother pointed out that tv presenters spend hours in a chair doing hair and makeup, and she warned me just how bad makeup was for your skin. Yet we live in a society where if you’re a woman, you have to wear it. Where I’m going with this: Lucky is being made up to be a consumable product. The celebrity you see there on the red carpet or out on stage probably looks entirely different and practically unrecognisable without all that makeup. Katy Perry proved this in her documentary Part of Me, where she actually looks like the rest of us without all that junk on her face.

Verse 2 does a good job putting into words the crazy a beloved entertainer feels in her ivory tower. Nothing seems real and “the world is spinning.” “She keeps on winning / But tell me what happens when it stops?” Indeed, what is she going to do when the fans stop showing up outside her hotel and she can’t sell records? Britney was lucky, as she began her pop career when record labels still believed in artists and doled out reasonable record deals. These days, if your debut *single* flops, you’re cut from the label. For any musical artist, you put your all your eggs in one basket that you and your talent(s) will lead to success and keep you up in rock royalty in the heavens, looking down on all the other acts that didn’t make it that far or high. It can be and is often a sobering reality check when you don’t make it or if even you do, you get knocked off your throne and fall from grace.

The most heartbreaking part of ‘Lucky’ has been engineered in the bridge. While the lyrics are taken from the repeated chorus to emphasise the point of the whole song, the note progression in Britney’s vocals is raised. Notice how the words “Isn’t she lucky?” are sung, as if we’re being mocked for questioning – or indeed, if Lucky is – on what a great life she must have. By changing the key slightly, an unexpected anthemic moment is achieved, set apart from the melody and chorus. It’s a warning klaxon. This is now a big deal. This isn’t just Grammy parties and music videos on tv. This is someone’s life. Britney was singing about her life that had become her prison, that her reality was far from what all of us ever saw. And people listening to this song completely missed it. Britney Spears will always be an American pop music icon. That will never change. But I sincerely hope she’s happy. Because we all deserve that.

Lastly, the song, in its official music video. Notice how another version of Britney is high above the red carpet Britney, sweeping her arms around and throwing glitter. Hmm…

Song Analysis #24: Matchbox Twenty – Mad Season

Title: ‘Mad Season’
Where to find it: ‘Mad Season’ (2000, Atlantic)
Performed by: Matchbox Twenty
Words by: Rob Thomas

As much as I think he’s a great songwriter, I never quite forgave Rob Thomas for recording ‘Smooth’ with Santana. It seems like lead singers (and lead songwriters for that matter) don’t understand how soul-crushing it is for the other members of a band when their leader goes off and does something without them. It’s unfortunate, because 1996’s ‘Yourself or Someone Like You’ was an amazing musical milestone, but momentum was lost. I don’t think Matchbox Twenty ever really fully recovered, and the unevenness of their sophomore album, 2000’s ‘Mad Season’, confirms this. I have the album and I’m always skipping tracks.

Compared to the rest of the album, ‘If You’re Gone’, ‘Bed of Lies’, and ‘Bent’ are all brilliant. They stand as excellent examinations in relationships gone wrong. But, at least in my perception, all three of these are very obvious lyrically. The title track ‘Mad Season’, in comparison, seems to have a beguiling split personality, and I give Thomas major props for having put on his own personal demons – substance addiction and mental illness – on public display through his words. I’m so sick of songs that are emotionally vacant lyrically in the 21st century. Get a clue, songwriters.

First, the words:

Verse 1
I feel stupid, but I know it won’t last for long
I’ve been guessing, and I coulda been guessing wrong
You don’t know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down?

Verse 2
Well, I feel stupid, but it’s something that comes and goes
I’ve been changing, I think it’s funny how no one knows
We don’t talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

Pre-chorus
So why you gotta stand there, looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you’d come around

Chorus
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out, that I’m lost and I’m hopeless
I’m bleeding and broken, though I’ve never spoken
I come undone, in this mad season

Verse 3
I feel stupid, but I think I been catching on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You’ve grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down?

Pre-chorus
So are you gonna stand there, are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now

Chorus
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out, that I’m lost and I’m hopeless
I’m bleeding and broken, though I’ve never spoken
I come undone, in this mad season

Bridge
And now I’m crying
Isn’t that what you want?
And I’m trying to live my life on my own
But I won’t, no
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I come undone
And I come undone

Chorus
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out, that I’m lost and I’m hopeless
I’m bleeding and broken, though I’ve never spoken

Extended end chorus
Well, I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out, I’m a child and I’m hopeless
I’m bleeding and broken though I’ve never spoken
I come, come undone
In this mad season
In this mad season
It’s been a mad season

Now, the analysis:

Thanks to the internet, back in 1997, I discussed the meaning of the songs of ‘Yourself and Someone Like You’ with a girl I met online who was, how do I put this nicely, obsessed with the band that was then known as matchbox20. I didn’t know much about the band and it was really helpful to learn more about Rob Thomas, the relationships he’d had, his mother’s battle with cancer (which coloured ‘3 AM’), and his own battles with drugs and anxiety. I’d always sensed that the best songwriters who had suffered through life were the ones I tended to gravitate towards, and in some strange way, I felt closer to him, once I understood where his words came from.

On and off over the last 17 years, Matchbox Twenty have made their name with songs on dysfunctional relationships: single ‘She’s So Mean’ from their latest album ‘North’ is so damn catchy, but it won’t win any awards in the lyrical meaning department. But as I mentioned in the introduction, I find ‘Mad Season’ genius because it’s not obvious. Is about a man getting upset with his woman? Is it about two friends talking? What is this “mad season” he keeps going on about? And who’s the person suffering in this “mad season”? Let’s discuss…

Verses 1 and 2 show Thomas in one of his usual self-deprecating writing styles: he’s calling himself stupid, or at least admitting “I feel stupid”. But then he goes on to say that it’s a feeling that “won’t last long” and “comes and goes”. I read this as self-doubt. Probably the most difficult part of life for a person suffering from any sort of mental illness is not being able to control your moods. You can feel fine and “high” from life at one moment, not knowing that you’re going to plummet at some given time soon in the future. At its worst, mental illness without professional help is a ridiculous roller coaster of emotions, and we’ve lost some of the greatest minds of our time from this, simply because they could not cope.

Throughout the song, the voice is talking to someone who he’s become frustrated with. I think it’s too easy to assume that the person he’s talking to has to be a woman, his wife, his girlfriend, his lover, whatever. I like how if you choose to, you can read most of this song as if he’s talking to his best friend, whether that best friend be male or female. The point is, he’s trying to talk to this person who’s very close to him and he’s saying, “I thought you understood me. But clearly, you haven’t been listening to the signals I’ve been sending out. I’m in pain. And you couldn’t hear me.” This is evident in the lines “You don’t know me now / I kinda thought that you should somehow”. These two people are no longer on the same wavelength anymore. The other person was someone he trusted, but it’s become painfully evident to him that the person just doesn’t understand what he’s going through, if he/she can’t see how badly he’s hurt.

Probably the most unique part of this song is how Thomas employs this image of “this mad season” throughout. In the first verse, he’s asking the person, “Does that whole mad season got ya down?” It seems strange, given that he’s the one one feeling stupid. Shouldn’t he be the one caught up in this mad season? Maybe, maybe not. The easiest explanation to what “mad season” is the protagonist of the song getting caught up in his hurt, which is causing him to “come undone” from life. (The words “come undone” are an echo of Duran Duran’s ‘Come Undone’, from their 1993 “Wedding Album”, another song I adore.) However, asking the other person how the mad season is affecting him/her seems to indicate a more vengeful side to Thomas’ protagonist.

See verse 3. Oof. The question to him/her is asked again. But look at the context. “I feel stupid, but I think I been catching on”: he feels stupid for being misled, but he’s woken up from this dream he had about their perfect relationship. “I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on”: okay, this is the one place in the song where I concede it’s probably been written as a poison pen letter to a lover. He lacks self-esteem, and it sucks that they no longer have that magical connection they used to, but he’s got an ace in his pocket: he knows that deep down, she still fancies him. Score! “You’ve grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around / Will that whole mad season knock you down?” These lines bring a smile to my face. He’s come to his senses. Thank god. She’s the one in the “mad” state now: like a wounded animal that doesn’t know what to think and can’t control her emotions, she’s the one experiencing the turmoil, and he’s watching her make this terrible transformation. The upshot is in verse 2, “I’ve been changing, I think it’s funny how no one knows”: hooray, he’s come to his senses. Yet no-one else has caught on that he has, in a way, grown up.

You’re probably wondering at this point why I’ve avoided discussing the chorus. Now I will, and you will see why. Let’s do the pre-chorus first. The first pre-chorus reads “So why you gotta stand there, looking like the answer now?” This doesn’t make sense until you’ve figured out he’s not only hurt, he’s also angry. You know how when people break up, usually the one who’s getting dumped will initially be all like “you’re making a big mistake. You’re going to be so sorry you dumped me. I was the best thing to ever happen to you”? It’s called saving face. She thinks him getting rid of her is the worst decision he ever made, because she’s somehow perfect. “It seems to me you’d come around”: she’s so full of herself, she couldn’t see he was the one that needed help. She needed to stop thinking about herself and realise they had a problem. “So are you gonna stand there, are you gonna help me out? / We need to be together now” echoes these feelings, though I think instead of the physical “together”, he’s saying they need to be on the same page.

Next, the chorus. “I need you now / Do you think you can cope?” Is she even strong enough or giving enough to be the support he needs? It’s not made clear in here, even when you get to the end. “You figured me out, that I’m lost and I’m hopeless / I’m bleeding and broken, though I’ve never spoken”: most men have trouble expressing their emotions. Maybe it was the wrong thing to do, but he never said what issues he was dealing with, but he’s upset that she couldn’t pick up on how badly he was hurting. People who are close to each other, best friends, they don’t need to be obvious or say outright what is wrong. Best friends should be able to sense something’s wrong. And friends step in and offer support, even if they can’t help fix the problem.

I have problems with the bridge. I’m not saying that I hate the bridge. Far from it. I find it so, so cutting. “And now I’m crying / Isn’t that what you want?” As much as I think men should cry when they’re upset – us women do it enough, don’t we? – because I think it would help men get closer to accepting their emotions and therefore be willing to put their own on the line like we do in relationships, it’s painful hearing this part of the song. “And I’m trying to live my life on my own / But I won’t, no”: this poor guy is struggling with trying to get away from the feelings he has from this woman. BUT HE CAN’T. What is the problem, I wonder? Is his head stuck in an idealised relationship? No, I think he just really, really loved her. And on some level, he still loves her, as evidenced by “At times I do believe I am strong / So someone tell me why, why, why / Do I, I, I feel stupid / And I come undone”: there are moments where he think he can break free of this relationship, but he’s wondering aloud why other times he’s weak and can’t, even though he’s recognised what they had is over. Not being able to free yourself from the emotional shackles of a relationship is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. You’re suffering and no-one else on the outside can see what pain you’re feeling on the inside.

I also wish to bring your attention to the line from the chorus “You figured me out, that I’m lost and I’m hopeless”: there seems to be some level of sadism that he’s sensed on her side. He thinks she knows how terrible he’s feeling about himself. That makes this situation further upsetting: she’s “standing there” knowing he feels “lost” and “hopeless”, yet she’s not willing to be the bigger person to help him. Whether the sadism is real or imagined, this is most definitely a relationship he needs to get out of, if only for the preservation of his own self-worth. Again, I can see this applying to friendships that have gone sour. No-one wants to be in a friendship where you feel like you’re being used. Unfortunately, it’s a hell lot easier to talk about the strength you need to leave someone than to let it come out from within and actually act.

Lastly, the song, in its promo video. I still remember seeing this video on Total Request Live and thinking it was the funniest thing ever, with its nods to Beatlemania and West Side Story. Now, though, I think it was Rob Thomas who decided he needed to add some levity to the subject matter of the song by making the video very funny.

Possibly too, the video was done this way to just show you how ‘mad’ the music business really is. The moment where the fangirls grab their “ROCK STAR” necklaces and then run away, even though the band are still sitting in the limo and they could have hung out with them, reminds me of a conversation I had once at SXSW over how fangirls/boys often fall in love with the objects of their affection and are blinded by the image they see: the guys and girls they see onstage. They seem unable to understand that the rock star you see onstage is a real person and an entirely different one to the person they are when they’re offstage. I think about all the bands I’ve become friends with and how very uncomfortable I’ve been, surrounded by girls who want nothing more out of life than to sleep with my guy friends just to say they’ve slept with a rock star. Awkward. As one of the few women who run a music Web site, I don’t think my band friends realise just how awkward this is.